My post today is tinged with sadness as I received some terrible news that a friend of mine committed suicide. she was a lovely girl always smiling laughing and although I didn’t know her well she was my dearest friends confidant – they did everything together and now my dear friend is just utterly broken.
Although I work in mental health and deal with the realities of suicide everyday it doesn’t make it any easier. The incident, with the Boston bombings has left many feeling perplexed and asking those bigger life questions.
I could spend hours hypothesising “why” in relation to the incidents of last week, and I am sure many people will… But for me two things have emerged from the disasters that have struck. Firstly it has made it even more clearer to me how important it is in helping those affected by mental health issues, as the consequences are literally earth shatteringly painful, and secondly, made me re-evaluate my life and the choices I choose to make.
I realise that I have been given a life and I have been given choices and I can choose to live. What I say may be controversial but I believe that when I was 18+ stone eating myself to an early grave I was not living – that was my way of “self harm” and I’m thankful that I found weightwatchers, this community and friends that brought me back from the edge before it was too late.
My quest to get healthy and to lose weight is my quest to live my life and to live it to the fullest. I want to run and run for Boston, for my friend and for the others we have lost along the way. I am going to keep going – I am going to get to goal and I am thankful for the life I am choosing to live.